I can’t do this. I’m a terrible mother.
“I CAN’T DO THIS.
I’M A TERRIBLE MOTHER.
MY SPOUSE DESERVES BETTER.
WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME?
WILL I EVER FEEL HAPPY AGAIN?
These were the thoughts running on repeat in my head for months after I had my daughter. What I’ve been told is such a joyful time was anything but for me. I was in a constant state of anxiety, always worrying about something bad happening to the baby. I couldn’t eat. Couldn’t sleep. I’m usually a very happy person, and these feelings made me feel out of control, scared and shameful. But coming to The Motherhood Center, I found comfort and solidarity from incredible mothers going through similar experiences. I got the treatment I needed and soon felt like myself again. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself that my PMAD did not define me, that it was temporary, and that it would get better. I’m hoping that by talking about it, other women learn that there is hope.”
-Kristen R